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So I have done too much worrying lately. Visas, upcoming results, editing 3 years' worth of portfolio to make up a competent CV.. the first two, especially, got me worried sick that I ended up with stressed induced hives, imagine that! Freaky clustered mosquito bite bumps that kept appearing and disappearing within an hour! 

Only then did I realise that I was being completely stupid, 

there is no point putting my health in jeopardy when I can't do anything about it in the first place.

It's done, and I can only wait. 

Of course, I hope for a pass, life would be so straight forward after that.

But I also need to mentally prepare myself to accept the likelihood that I won't,
not because I'm being a complete pessimist,
but because in reality you can never tell with this course.
(Take me for instance, 2 years of doing well and the 3rd year down the drain! hahh!)
I will be honest; I don't know if I will be able to accept failure as well as I did the first time around. 

But I suppose if it happens, then there is no other option but to accept it and move on. 

If anything failure will only make me work harder.

 One of my best lecturers failed his 3rd and 5th year, look at him now..

he's the ultimate Brain. 

Anyway..fingers crossed for me!

Things that made me happy today:

Hot chocolate and marshmallows-the best start to a 9 hour shift.

Burnt my tongue..but it's all worth it!

My bed-The best way to end a 9 hour shift with sore feet.

 I love my bed and my bed loves me.

and Texts from the man.

Ours is a complicated story. 

We're always so busy in our own little world that sometimes we go for days and days without speaking.

When we do it's mostly short conversations, thanks to schedules, breaking lines and stupid connections.

 I know how it's like to run your life frantically against time,

so having someone spend some time of their busy day to say hello means a lot to me. :)