old cow

I am getting so bad at updating these days but life is really just constantly evolving around the chaos of architecture all-nighters and catching up with falling behind, or the chaos of weekend work which gets more exhausting each day as the place picks up. 

This up and down cycle has exhausted the life out of me and I can't be more thankful to be on a three week Easter break now even though it will basically be spent catching up on my fallen-behind work!

These days I feel hesitant to fall asleep because I feel like days are disappearing in the blink of an eye and suddenly I'm telling people that I've been in the UK for nearly 5 years. 5 years! 

I have definitely aged a good deal because I feel the universe on my shoulders a little bit more now.

I feel it when I look in the mirror and see developing lines on my right temple (maybe I raise my eyebrows like the Rock too much), when I start falling asleep helplessly at 9pm on the couch, when I have to take my granny naps every now and then and rely on double doses of caffeine to survive,  when it takes more time to bounce back from exhausting days, when I feel repulsed by the thought of clubbing and drinking or even bothering to get out of the house after dark because it's cold, when all I want to do is spend my day curled up on the couch or have coffee with friends, and when I feel all these pains and aches that are starting to appear as if to say "age is catching up!"

Jeezes listen to me it's as though I'm mentally 40 years old.

Think I need to go on a holiday to remember how to live and be young again!