My prediction and dreams were right all along.
While waiting in the queue with a quarter of my comrades yesterday,
I started joking to my housemate about the consequences of me throwing up at my lecturer's desk before he handed me my slip. And of course, I just have to have the most abnormal ways of being nervous-- I ended up having a giggle fit right before my turn. (Good God imagine if I did this in serious situations, i.e. in A&E when they're trying to stitch my arm back to its socket!)
Anyway back to the point, there was a lot of paper shuffling before he took mine out. I just smiled. I already knew what was coming up next. He glanced at me with much sympathy-- the look that usually accompanies kind words of condolences during funerals.
I'm sorry for your loss--
the demise of your BA (Hons) Degree in Architecture.
Yes, OK he didn't say that but he might as well have!
So here it is, I'm not ashamed to say I've messed up.
Surprisingly, it didn't hurt like I thought it would, guess I've got my pessimism to thank, when I made up my mind on hand in day to expect nothing but the worst so I wouldn't end up disappointed.
It's funny, there is always the first to everything, but of course, my first time to academic failure just had to wait until the biggest, most major stage to flop *rolls eyes*
I'm not proud of my failure (who is?), but I'm not ashamed either, because despite other things that have affected me this year (him leaving, falling out with a tutor and little unavoidable shits), I know I worked hard and gave it all I could. Time was the one thing that I couldn't win over, but c'est la vie.
It's all done now. :)
There will still be a graduation, it will just have to be delayed for now,
depending on the decision of my tutors.
depending on the decision of my tutors.
Meanwhile, you and I, dad, will be away on holiday far away from Brighton on the 25th of July.
:) I am still and will always be proud of you, Kimmy. You know that God always gives us the best for each and every one of us.
ReplyDeleteThe acceptance and the settled-ness is just a huge relief all over, I imagine. *hugs*
You've worked hard and gave it your all. I'm impressed at how strong you are, Kim. There should be no regrets. It's not the end of the world that graduation will be delayed. As for now, start planning that holiday of yours. =) *big hugs*
ReplyDeleteYou've done ur best, Kimmy..all in good time, and i'm sure God has a plan and a reason for everything.. one thing at a time :) you have been through so much, and im sure greater things are in store ;) hang in there k. *hugs hugs hugs hugs* !
ReplyDeleteNeesah: Yea it was definitely a relief knowing :) my only worry is my visa now, i will still have to extend it as a student visa but im not sure how jpa will get around it, i assume they dont have to sponsor me because I'm not going back to uni, as im just resubmitting, well hopefully lol. but Im gonna need their paperwork for the visa :/ oyy so much hassle.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys for all the kind comments :) It will all definitely be settled soon, im just waiting for the verdict from the panel to know if i get to resit the project or retake the year. Either way at least I can still minta puji with my student card la kan to get discounts hahaa. ;)
We're all in a bit of a shock because im pretty sure more than half the year failed one or more modules.I guess the pressure just got too much and we all just caved. big hugs!