maybe

I don't understand what is the matter with me these days

I'm turning into such an emotional basket case.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep.

Maybe it's the lack of time.

Maybe it's the stress of all my projects overlapping.

Maybe it's these insecurities and worries turning into painful knots on the back of my neck.

Maybe I just miss you and I can't do anything about it.

Maybe I'm just scared to lose you.

Maybe I'm just frustrated with how things have turned out.

Maybe I'm just worried for my unknown future.

Maybe it's the customer who yelled and swore at me at work on Saturday.

Maybe I'm just tired of the same shit happening every single week.

Maybe I'm just tired full stop.

Maybe it's the lady who walked past me at the bus stop where three Japanese students were raising money for the Tsunami-- who screwed up her face and retorted "It's those stupid Japanese stuff again" with so much spite I had raging intentions to smash her face.

Maybe I'm just sick and tired of encountering so much bitterness in this country.

Maybe I'm becoming bitter myself.

Maybe it's all the headlines I keep reading about.

Maybe I just need to cry it all out.

Maybe I'm just psycho.

Maybe it's all of the above.

I honestly just want to go back to being happy again.