It's been nearly a month but everything is still so vivid.
Time has flown by yet at the same time it feels like a stand still.
It's as if my mind refuses to accept this absence that has taken over your place.
Everything and anything triggers memories that keep replaying themselves.
Whether I am just sitting in the bus on my way to work, lost in thought,
or when I step into familiar environments. Whether I am awake or asleep-- there you are.
Smells, I find, tend to be accompanied by a strong sense of nostalgia that somehow seem to hurt so much more.
Some days I get by ok.
Others tend to be filled with a sort of bitter resentment.
Not towards you. No,
never towards you.
But towards the state of things.
Life maybe.
I thought time was supposed to heal all wounds.
I've been a silent reader so far, but was going through similar stuff some time back. what i learned was:
ReplyDelete1. Give it more than a month
2. Try to stop yourself from keeping track how long it has been
3. Don't indulge in nostalgia of the good times, not for now at least. Put the memories away for a distant time in the future when they don't hurt anymore
hope this helps! :)