epiphany

"My life began when I was 45,

 and I feel like I still have a lot of life to live"

An epiphanic moment I had during a conversation.

Maybe I am crazy, or going through quarter life crisis but at 22 I sometimes feel like life is speeding beyond control and that time is constantly ticking, ticking, and eventually running out. I don't know why all these years I have allowed myself to be influenced by the whole idea that "marriage is the ultimate deadline to your youth so make the most of it and squish your lifetime's worth of craziness into your twenties because time is running out, biatch"

Why do we tend to perceive that after a certain age, everything is downhill from there? 

Why do we fear growing old, go into meltdown at the first few wrinkles or grey hairs, 

and think that age limits us from doing anything we "should have done" in our younger days? Who's to say that after marriage our youth stops, and all things on the check list of "Things to do Before hitting 30" gets flushed down the toilet? It's true that we can't run away from responsibilities that will hit us as we get older but surely we shouldn't allow these responsibilities to be the ultimate party pooper to life?

maybe this post will contradict with the whole idea of "life is short, make the most of it"

but surely, when you compress too many crazies into a short period of your life there won't be any time left to appreciate and enjoy? 

Why am I even thinking about all of this? :S