Babbles

"You'd think that you'd be braver with age but truth is, you fear more things as you get older."
Quote from a close friend during the mandatory 'we're old!' conversation last summer.

Things I feared as a kid:

Insects, walking into a dark room, getting into trouble with my parents/teachers,

ghosts, heights, drowning, falling.

Things I fear now:

MY FUTURE, 

Heights(Magnified), Drowning (Magnified), Ghosts (toned down unless I hear anymore ghost stories), LOSING anybody, Being caught in a fire, Choking to death, Attackers, 

Car accidents, Freak accidents, Failing, Hurting anyone, Growing old,

  Losing my limbs, Losing my sight/hearing, Going under the knife,

Cancer/any long term life-threatening illness, Not being able to cope with life, Feeling out of control,

being completely utterly broke..etc.

Sometimes I feel like asking an elderly person how he/she got through the course of life without going mental, especially in those times when life was so much tougher than today.The thought of my future and how unclear it is gets to me sometimes. So often have I been asked about my plans in the long run and I just cannot come up with a proper answer because I honestly don't know. I can't even see myself getting out of bed  2 weeks into the future, let alone set a plan for 2 years. Maybe going spontaneous is the way to go?

Maybe life will be more exciting this way.

kim